Friendships

I've never found it too hard to make friends. I have always been the loud, confident and comfortable in her surroundings girl. I have never been the new kid. I grew up in the same, reasonable sized town where everyone kind of knew each other and if they didn’t it was pretty easy to find someone that did. It was easy for me to make ‘friends’.

But now… I’m the new kid, surrounded by a bunch of people I don’t know! I moved to Brisbane knowing a couple of people here and there from over the years. But nothing too solid, no one that I could really call a close friend. This was daunting in itself, because although I love meeting people and love making ‘friends’, it is hard for me to form a friendship full of depth quickly, and my close friends will testify to this. It takes time. For anyone.

So 9 or 10 weeks down the track and I almost feel like I did when I first arrived here. Don’t get me wrong I have met some people here that I loved instantly and know we will become friends but when does it get too that point? When has anyone really formed a genuine friendship?

Has anyone ever actually thought about friendship? How do you personally define it? Who are your true friends? And who are simply your acquaintances? Are you making the new kid feel welcome?

To get to the point….I miss my friends. The end.

DO YOU LOVE THE LIFE YOU LIVE?

I guess I ask my self this question pretty often. Do I love the life I live? Because if not, then why not?

Just recently I made a pretty big move. I packed up my bags, said goodbye to my family and friends, filled my car with petrol and drove to Brisbane. Given I have left before this time was different, I always had the intention of coming back, this time there was no set date to permanently come ‘home’. Who knows there might never be, but that is the most exciting part.

Growing up in Townsville was by far the greatest way to grow up, I had my family around and I made great friends. Townsville has just enough culture to make you thirst for more, it has just enough to do that you are driven to do more, and you learn just enough about the world that you want explore more. For me – it was a perfect way to start my journey. But there comes a point, a point where you need to move on. I love Townsville (there you go! It’s out there! Chyna really does love Townsville!) But for me now, at this point, it just wasn’t enough. I had outgrown my surroundings, and only because it taught me to want more.

So here I am in Brisbane, with a very limited amount of friends, no family in my immediate surroundings and no idea what the next few years really has to offer me, and yet I’m completely content, completely happy. Why? Because I know this is exactly where I’m meant to be for the moment. I am doing exactly what I’m meant to be doing. It may not be hanging with orphans in Mexico, working with youth in Newcastle, or being at home chilling with my family but it is where I am meant to be, so I am content and happy with that. I love the life I live! And I am excited for what the world throws my way!

Just a word from me :)

Welcome! My first official blog :) Thankyou for joining me! For a while now I have been following and reading others blogs however never kept my own. I have come to realise that is seems like a great way to get thoughts and feelings out. If I have something to say why not share it with the world on the internet. Once i'ts out there I can never take it back! kind of exciting in a way!. So anyway i hope you all enjoy the mess that is my mind.